The hardest part of growing up for me was having other people tell me that I wasn’t good enough even though I knew that I was going to be a STAR! Now, I’m not necessarily saying that I needed a #1 hit single on the Hot 100 Billboard charts or anything, but I have always known that I was better than 90% of the people around me and that I would become something bigger than what I currently was. Now I’m sure you’re saying, “Ugh Preston! You’re so cocky and that is such a disgusting characteristic!” Well I say to you, “THAT SOUNDS LIKE A PERSONAL PROBLEM CAUSE IM A STAR!” (No, I’m only being cheeky, I just said that to sound cool…which I’m sure that I’m failing miserably at). But I wonder, why don’t we all feel like we can achieve any and everything that we put our minds to? Why is it so “shocking” to believe in yourself past all your flaws and visualize the person you dream of becoming. Why is believing in yourself so damn difficult?
I went to the movies to see Beyond the Lights a few weeks ago and honestly, it was such a great movie…(I didn’t expect for it to be about anything since the preview is this Rihanna-looking pop star (played by Gugu Mbatha-Raw) spreading her legs singing about being a masterpiece….I knew this movie was going to be horrible)….However, I was pleasantly surprised. In a nutshell, the movie is about a pop star rediscovering who she is at her core after losing herself behind the lights, camera, and pop star persona. Its a gripping tale of how everything that glitters aint gold and you have to be careful when pursuing a career not only in entertainment, but in whatever you decide to do.
Not only am I an aspiring lifestyle and fashion blogger but I also do a lot of work with my community where I see a lot of children who don’t realize the power that they all have. Its heartbreaking because I believe that one of the fantastic perks of living in the United States is that we have the ability to become any and everything we want without limits! But something is standing in our way of becoming the knockout badasses we all can be. Is it society telling us we’re not good enough? Are we just not told enough of what is possible so we never aspire to anything greater? Or like in most instances, is it our parents’ fault?
Here’s the secret. This is what I’ve learned. You have to begin to love yourself FIRST and discover for yourself the power that’s inside of you. Its not up to anyone else to fill you with a sense of purpose or passion. Its up to you to determine whether you want to have a bright future or a depressed existence. Discover what you enjoy and begin to craft that into something that makes you proud because listening to other people and depending on them to build you up will just make you feel wonky and you won’t become the person you know you are destined to be.
I recently bought a pair of Dr. Martens but it took me forever to decide to purchase them because I was so afraid of what they would “say” about me or “what other people would think.” But I finally worked up the courage to buy them and I am absolutely in love and they are my absolute favorite shoe!!!! Be who you want to be for you and be the f*cking star you were always meant to be!…(and excuse the mess, I was in the middle of moving into my apartment :))